what to say

I rarely use this account to the point I forgot it existed. But that’s going to change.

When I first created an account in Blogger, my aim was to air out my grievances against anything. I would still do that but not as much as I used to. I was 24 when I signed up here. Seven years later, I learned that not all things needed to be shared on the net.

I think I’ve seen myself as a private person online but offline well I don’t talk much.

Things changed and one of them was my actual retirement from the call center industry. I was diagnosed with type 2 diabetes which hindered me from working as an instructor and at the same had put an end on my nightly shifts.

I am also taking up my master’s degree on Environmental Conservation Biology at SLU since last year. Despite my air of indifference, I do care about the environment but I’m also realistic enough that changing one’s perception of what sustainable is would not happen overnight. Studying and working at the same time was tiring, which explained why I end up unemployed now.

Yet I’m thankful for it because I was able to move out of my comfort zone at work and learn new things.

In a way I’ve also become conscious of my environment and is dismayed at the lack of caring from my countrymen not to mention the discipline. It’s like Filipinos have selective dyslexia when it comes to reading signs not limited to not throwing garbage, no jaywalking, no U-turn, no peeing on walls, post no bill….you get the idea.

On the bright side we’re slowly becoming aware how dangerous the effects of climate change are. We have yet to learn lessons from 2009, hopefully this 2011 would wake us up. If not, well we DO have a population crisis and as Thomas Malthus said let nature take its course in cutting down the population.

I’ve seen tree planting, collection of plastic bottles and other environment related stuff. I just wonder how long this would be. Filipinos are known to do one thing with vigor then lose interest afterwards aka ningas kugon. While tree planting is good, would that be it? Who would monitor the seedling to make sure they grow? And how many years before they grow into big trees? Most of us may either be dead or old by the time it reaches that size.

We have the intention, we lack the implementation. After all it’s a tough choice: economic development or environmental conservation?

And if all goes down the drain, I hope I’ll be dead by the time that actually happens.